"That John Denver's full of s%^&! I thought the Rocky Mountains would be a little more rocky!" - Dumb and Dumber
Tomorrow I leave for Montana. This has been a lesson in...something. A lot of things actually. I'll only be home for a little while
Being here has spun me. I came ready to put my heart into a new time and place and when I got here I couldn't get my footing. Then it seemed like the instant I felt my heart turn and I saw the path that was leading me away, something got beneath my skin and now I am torn. My course doesn't change now, it just hurts when something hangs on as I walk away. I suppose I brought it on myself, but it makes me want to run. I spent the last two nights trying to walk it off, around the lake by myself over and over and....I guess it'll just take time and trying to forget like all the other times. One quick moment and I wasn't free, that's all it took.
There's nothing like rejection to help you close a door.
Being here has spun me. I came ready to put my heart into a new time and place and when I got here I couldn't get my footing. Then it seemed like the instant I felt my heart turn and I saw the path that was leading me away, something got beneath my skin and now I am torn. My course doesn't change now, it just hurts when something hangs on as I walk away. I suppose I brought it on myself, but it makes me want to run. I spent the last two nights trying to walk it off, around the lake by myself over and over and....I guess it'll just take time and trying to forget like all the other times. One quick moment and I wasn't free, that's all it took.
There's nothing like rejection to help you close a door.
1 comment:
That i won't do. I'm not leaving the Rockies, but my days in Montana are numbered.
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