SunDay FunDay - "it's a damn party!"

I wish I could write about how I had fun in the sun at a party on the lake, the perfect SunDay FunDay you might think, but actually I worked from 10am to 930pm, two different jobs. Although despite the heat and the tiredness of my feet it wasn't an altogether bad time.

I was at the restaurant for the first half of the day and then I went and helped serve dinner somewhere the other half. The best part by far was when I drove back to the Raven and dove off the dock into the slightly storm-tossed lake. It was the perfect temperature and the exact refresher I needed after a very hot and practically non-stop day. I wasn't that stoked that my knee (previously agravated on the aforementioned 12 mile hike, but pain-free for the last few days) was really stiff and sore as soon as I sat down after going in the water. I will say that I enjoyed the swim as much as I've ever enjoyed being in the water. Floating in the waves with the wind and the half-dark around me was kindof surreal. I should've stayed longer.

dichotomy

"She's such an amazing woman," She said. " I don't think there's a shallow bone in her body."

For some reason when my friend said that about a particular woman she admired I felt the deepest sense of conviction. "Could that be said about me?" I wondered. Without pause I knew the answer to that would have to be no. That surity disappointed me.

I have felt for some time now that I lost something along the way. I can't decided if I've become someone I'm not, or if I've become the someone that I am. Or if I'm really stuck somewhere in between just waiting for the right person to come along and 'bring out the best' in me if it's in there.

On the other hand I think the last few weeks have helped me to feel and understand some things in a way that's more deep and real; invaluably more than I ever did before. Some depth regained I suppose.

I know that the key to a good post is to make it short and sweet, so I'll end this. I'm still trying to figure out a small way to encompass the last month. Maybe I'll figure it out before the month is over.

ps: the tall cowboy is moving back to the midwest.

pps: i did not have a crush on a hick, he just happened to be riding right before i saw him.

ppss: no love lost here.

a day off worth remembering

as the summer has progressed i have found myself stuck in this pattern of waiting around to work, not working enough, and always being at work when something worthwhile seems to be going on elsewhere. coupled with that i don't think i've ever had a summer disappear so utterly fast.
in light of my inconveniet schedule, boredom and the fact that it's alread the middle of July i couldn't turn down the offer to go hiking in Glacier Park on monday. for growing up here i have surprisingly little experience hiking in general, and especially in the park.
i guess this doesn't have to turn into a lengthy description, but the point is i should've been daunted by the fact that it was a 12 mile hike, and i wasn't. even though my body protests the previous day's decisions, i am really proud of myself. there is a certain sense of accomplishment knowing you used a few hours of your day to cover such a long distance on foot.
summer is still disappearing, so i am determined to get more out of the days, which i might add are hot and finally worthy of season. thursday i plan to tube the swan river, and hopefully this weekend we're renting a raft and riding the rapids down the middle fork.
i'll get the most out of this summer yet. now i just need to remedy the minute size of my paycheck and the season won't be a total wash.

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Fourth of July Weekend with my beautiful friend Amber!

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What does my birthday mean?

I don't know exactly what kindof information this is derived from. But it is, however, surprisingly accurate about my personality.

Your Birthdate: September 16

Your birth on the 16th day of the month gives a sense of loneliness and generally the desire to work alone. You are relatively inflexible, and insist on your being independent. You need a good deal of time to rest and to meditate. You are introspective and a little stubborn. Because of this, it may not be easy for you to maintain permanent relationships, but you probably will as you are very much into home and family. This birth day inclines to interests in the technical, the scientific, and to the religious or the unknown realm of spiritual explorations. The date gives you a tendency to seek unusual approaches and makes your style seem a little different and unique to those around you. Your intuition is aided by the day of your birth, but most of your actions are bedded in logic, responsibility, and the rational approach. You may be emotional, but have a hard time expressing these emotions. Because of this, there may be some difficulty in giving or receiving affection.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?